It's not always easy

Training has officially started ramping. I wish I could say "I feel so strong!" or "I am so looking forward to 75 more days of training!" but I'm just so. freaking. tired. I've been pushing SO HARD to get faster... stronger... further my endurance... but I have never pushed like I am now. Mentally, I feel strong while I'm moving. Physically, I feel awesome while I'm moving. But the rest of life can feel like I'm in a haze. I feel nauseous more than I care to admit. I'm having a hard time sleeping. Why does my body have to remind me that I'm not a super hero... I'm merely human and can't go and go and go without rest?

Part of me thinks that I'm just not replenishing my calories enough, and part of me knows this is just the ramp. Do other Ironman athletes feel this way? Am I doing something wrong? Anyways, less than 3 months till Ironman AZ. I'm killing it on the bike and run. I'm really slacking on getting my ass in the pool. And last week it was CLOSED which didn't help!

This last weekend was Bumbershoot! Of course, got the 3 day pass. It's in Seattle Center a block from my condo, I love pretending like I'm a festival person, and enjoying lots of amazing, live music (Odesza, Flume, Big Sean, X-Ambassadors, Cash Cash, Weezer, Gucci Maine, The Roots, Lorde, and so many smaller bands too!) Best performance for me was X-Ambassadors and Broods. It is hard to train all morning and then rage all afternoon/night, but I found some balance and really enjoyed Bumbershoots lineup this year!

This weekend - Black Diamond 70.3! I've never raced a half ironman distance before. I am not going into this race looking to RACE (which is easy to say when I'm not competing at the moment...) This is training, practice, and really a big focus on nutrition. I'm I'm hoping to do this race in 6 ish hours - (35 min swim, 3 ish hour bike, 1:50 half marathon? with wiggle room to transition and maybe be slower in some of it?). But I have NO idea what's going to happen! I haven't raced a half marathon in a LONG time... so we'll see what happens!!!

Well, that's all for now. Hoping my attitude and energy picks up soon.

"What we think, we become"

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