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"She doesn't even go here!"...I have a lot of feelings.

As we've been tapering, I've been overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings. Happiness, fear, anxiety... all the feelings, more than I've felt in a while. I have been so exhausted the past 6 months that I've felt a constant state of being "out of it" and haven't felt as emotionally connected, so this overwhelming rush of emotions throughout the days has been very different.

I thought that when they said not to go crazy during taper that it would only apply to elite athletes that train a LOT harder than me. Already, I've found myself pushing my workouts too hard. Everything this week is supposed to be super easy or don't do it at all. I'm swimming, biking, and running too fast and hard. It's challenging to not keep pushing at the intensity I'm so used to - every workout I have to remind myself constantly to slow down - total opposite of everything up until now! While tapering has certainly been challenging mentally and emotionally, I am enjoying catching up on some sleep in the mornings and feeling energized during the day.

Today was my last day in the office before we head to Whistler tomorrow morning. My team tricked me into thinking that I had an important meeting with my boss, and decorated my whole office, made a gift basket, and a video with good luck wishes from my team (which has like 30 people!). I cried when I walked into my office and saw all the fabulous decorations and I cried again when I watched the video (too many feelings!) I am so fortunate to work for a company like Slalom. I am surrounded by some of the best people I have ever met. Not only are they incredible at what they do for work, but they are incredibly caring people. The relationships I've already built with my co-workers in less than a year amazes me. I am so, so lucky. To all my Slalom people - you are AMAZING and I love you. To know I have a whole team cheering me on this Sunday will help me keep pushing even when I'd rather quit and bury my face in a box of cupcakes.

LOVE MY TEAM!!!!!
We've been keeping an eye on the weather for Whistler and Pemberton and while Isaac has had a lot of worries about potential thunderstorms and rain, it currently says (but is changing every hour) that it's a chance of rain. High 50s-mid 60s on Sunday. I will take that forecast over 90 degrees any day! I race better in lower temps, so I'm thrilled. I'd prefer no rain as I'd rather not crash on the bike but will take what I can get and deal with the rain if it comes that day.

Tonight Chelsey flies in and I can't wait to see her. In all of the stress of thinking about Ironman I keep forgetting that I'm getting almost 2 weeks with my best friend! It'll be nice to spend time together for longer than a weekend. It'll also be nice to do another "first race" with her. We did our first 8k, 1/2 marathon, and full marathon together. Now, first Ironman together. She would probably be the only person I could convince to do an ultra with me, but for now I'll just let her finish Ironman....

FOUR DAYS.
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